I am Unhappy... ... Unhappy till I can cry during my shower... ...
Do you know that kind of feeling... where you can't cry out in front of some one.
I stay in the room, listen to music suddenly my tears drop. Then my brain start to be unclear why am i like that... Then he came in, I went out of the room to the bathroom. I turn on the shower, drain myself with water... I felt my tears was dripping inside my heart more instead of eyes... I covered my eyes with both hands and let the shower drain on me for very long and I was crying out but without sound... Can you feel the miserable in me? Who can Really HEAR me...
My mind start to run wild till the very end where I want to be ALONE. I am suffocated... I suddenly can't feel the breathe of me.
Does Alone means running away from REALITY?
My LIFE is in a MESS??? What I REALLY WANT? What I ReaLLy NEED?
I HATE to be LOST... ... ... ... WHY are there so many ??????? in me.