I had missed action in my blog for almost 2 weeks. Cos my daily routine remain.
First wish Huihui my second sis a happy birthday... She was in taiwan now, so can't celebrate with her. Hope she had a enjoyable day!!! Stay healthy...
Sounds like i am talking to myself, cos none of my family members know about my blog... Only few of my friends knew. Even my bf do not know about this. Acting secretive... maybe... haha... I have no friends la... LOL... Speaking rubbish again.
Today sunday, it should not be a time i blog but today i am back at my own house. Don't feel like staying at his house. Just so frustrated with him... Maybe some of the times we have to give each other some space to breathe. It's true in some way but not true in some ways... If a marriage couple has to be like that, i think it is not very healthy at all. Don't it wrong we are not married yet... I am stating example.
Asking why??? All i can say is he is showing me tiring face on saturday. He is the one who wake up early. And after we are back from our brunch, he lie on the sofa looking so tired. Then i tell him to stay at home n i can drive to hui house to collect the lights. But he refused, so he drove me there.
After the collection, we wanna to send his mum n my mum to jurong west 502 for hair cut and dad n me wanna go n buy stove for hui house. I know he is tired, cos he is following us the whole day and it is not his stuff. I did say thank you to him and he say it's ok.
Then at night we went to fetch his mum n my mum from the salon, there after we went up my house to have durian together. After durian, we proceed to wash his car. I am the one who say go and wash cos his car was very dirty. I know it is not nice to drive a dirty car. He is just lazy to do it.
When we are washing the car, he looks lazy and tired to wash the car. Wanna shorten the process of cleaning it. I was thinking, can't he do it once and for all. Why cut short the process. He is not the only person who clean it, i am helping him to wash and vacuum the car. I voice out to him, "Why are you so tired, if you are tired then i don't talk to you loh." It's true right, since you are tired i will leave you alone. I am also doing the same things as you, why i am not as tired as you. Or i just enduring myself even i am tired.
Dislike the way he behave... ... Are you really that tired... If you are tired then endure until night time then sleep. No need to show me all those tiring look and act ok... If you are tired just let me know, and jolly well sleep at home. I can do everything by myself, although i might need your car but i can cycle to hui house too. I have a choice.
After the washing, i keep quiet the whole night. I don't want to talk to you. I won't disturb you. I do things that i like... i watch the show which i like and i don't want to share it with you. my watching of show is always in the room. Buffering those online movie. You know i won't want to fight for the tv in the living room and i don't have the right. I can endure cos i have no right in the house.
You try to give in to me but you know my temper... I can be angry for very very long period of time. If you can't stand me, you always have choice.
Today Sunday Morning, i wake up at 9+am and toss on the bed till 10+ then i wake up. I decided to go home but i know he will definitely be angry if i just walk away without telling him... at least i still respect you Mr Lai. I drop my ideas of going home and wait for him to wake up.
I spent my time by surfing the net, until 12+ then he is awake. We went down and have brunch, he knew i am still unhappy. I am that kind of person, i can ignore you no matter what. I went to ordered my food and he say he is standing at my back for so long and i don't bother to ask what he want to eat.
YES I CAN TELL YOU, I DON'T BOTHER AT ALL... It is your own business.
You want to say i am crazy or what i just don't care. This is me. U can you take it cannot then forget it.
After the brunch, we walk back to his house downstair and i tell him i want to back back my own house and i don't want him to follow but he still follow. I stop my foot step and tell him i want to go home but i don't want you to follow. We stand there for almost 3 mins then he turn around and go home and i proceed home myself...
I want to lead my own free life... I don't want to go back your house and share those tv show which i dislike. I just feel i have no rights to choose the show i like with them around. To avoid all this, i have to go into room everytime to surf net and find things to do. Have you notice it??? I think you had nv notice it. No matter it is weekdays or weekend i am always doing this. Have you realise it. The answer is "No". You will only think that i am rude and want to hide in the room right.
Give me time, i will endure. Until one day my limit is up i will erupt.
