The LoVe You Have Given Me

♥ Monday, December 31, 2007

Dear Friends, Sorry for neglecting my blog... i promise to upload some over due pictures in 2007. I took during the holiday, So I'm doing it now... Many Picture, some of it i will collate to slide show. Dinner at Plaza Sing

♥Want Monday, December 31, 2007

♥ Sunday, December 30, 2007

I read this sad letter on someone blog, so sad... ...

I think the mummy also have her own reason who doing this.
No mummy in this world wanna kill an innocent living things inside them. Cos they can feel them as one.

For her and him...

Dear Mommy,

I am in Heaven now...I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has happened. I was so excited when I began realizing my existance. I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes. I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings. I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping. Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me. Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry. I heard Daddy yelling back. I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon. I wondered why you cried so much. One day you cried almost all of the day. I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy. That same day, the most horrible thing happened. A very mean Monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in. I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me. Maybe you never heard me. The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming, "Mommy, Mommy, help me please! Mommy, help me." Complete terror is all I felt. I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't anymore. Then the monster started ripping my arms off. It hurt so bad; the pain i can never explain. It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop. I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off. Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying. I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me. I wanted to make all your tears go away. I had so many plans to make you happy. Now I couldn't, all my dreams were shattered. Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all. I wanted more than anything to be your daughter. No use now, for I was dying a painful death. I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you. I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand. And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead. I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone. The angel took me away to a wonderful place. Then I was happy. I asked the angel what was the thing was that killed me. He answered, "Abortion. I am sorry, for I know how it feels. " I don't know what abortion is, I guess that's the name of the monster. I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl. I tried very hard to live. I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful. It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live. I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you. I didn't want to die. Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did.

Love, Your Baby Girl

♥Want Sunday, December 30, 2007

♥ Friday, December 28, 2007

Actually wanted to recall what i have done on 14th Dec 07, too bad i have forget where i been. ohhhhhh.....

Have bad memory nowadays! I think cos of the alcohol effect. Damage my brain, I hate it. No choice have to work for money. How i wish i can stop working and someone able to support me. So i no need to have dark circle, bad memory, age faster.

"God please give me all the good things, i know it is impossible. There are no free things in this world."

Past few days i was quite busy, busy with shopping and work. My time was all filled with work, sparing some time for hubby and friends.

Bought a pair of shoes for hubby for his christmas gift, and he bought a bracelet and earring for me. He said that it is not a christmas present haha... cos he just buy it when he saw the salesgirl wear it very nice. In additional, he pay for all my shopping when we are at orchard. I think this is what he consider as christmas present.
Item are: facial cleanser, mascara and shoes.

We went to orchard for many many days, plan to take picture at there. However, nothing catch our eyes so we just took about less than 10 photo on the lighting. Instead we took only our own faces will upload it next week.

ehhhhh.... i was typing and typing. memory of 14th dec 07 flash in my mind out of sudden. I have to drop it down now to prevent i forget it again. It was a outing with samantha, tracy and shu fen to PS for dinner. I think i can continue it when i have time. Now have to go and cook maggie mee and prepare to go work...

Many things to update for Dec. So friends have more patient. I will slowly log it out one by one next week.

Happy holiday !!!! One more week to school reopen yeahhh!!!!! Can see all my fellow classmates and friends.

Bye bye!!!! Miss ya

♥Want Friday, December 28, 2007

♥ Friday, December 14, 2007

Shit i just post my day on thursday outing... then i right click and cut then all gone. so many things lo.... shit...

Don't want to write liao lah... wanna go bath and go back my house. Pass the time to go work tonight. Upload it Tml, if i got the mood.

Stupid blog... eyes so pain now lo...

♥Want Friday, December 14, 2007

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today skip class due to tireness.

Went to have dinner with TRACY, SAMANTHA, SHU FEN at plaza singapura "MATTHAN FISH" spell wrongly. A last dinner together before Shufen go to China for her Holiday. So shiok!!! Can travel every Holiday Loh.

It was a restaurant which is similar to FISH & CO. , Selling all Fish dishes. We ordered 3 main course and 1 platter total sum abt $88. Comment about the food: still ok only la, tea house still better haha... Anyway, you never try you never know.

I hope to have more this kind of events with friends loh, meeting up together and chat, laugh, making fun of each other. It is a method to make our relationship much closer. I completed my gathering with Jamie, meimei, yuting secondary school friendship. Now poly friendship with Tracy, Samantha, Shu Fen.

Always spend time with boyfriend makes my life seems too cold, Cos i don't want to neglect all my friends.

Having a great session at dinner, taking pictures , telling lame joke and eating. The food was too much and in the end, we left many fries all over. Haha... ... Act power lah, order so much... ...

After dinner, we proceed to go shop and then take photo outside plaza singapura as they have christmas decoration. Will upload it later.

After plaza sing, our next stop is WESTIN HOTEL. Tracy use to work at the new asia bar, so we wanted to go up and see the view of singapore at night 71 storey... woooooooo... so high. Went and the view was really good. It is the first time i'm there. Nv have the chance to go there before. 1st time to "matthan fish" and 1st time to "71 storey". What a happy day.

Went into the disco pub and we have the different view of the durian, cant see merlion. Have a few pic there and was treat to drik at there, as tracy ask his colleague to make for us. But so Paiseh lo, nv pay then the manager like keep looking at us. Shit man, i wanted to say "How much ah, i will pay for the Drinks, but tracy say nvm, the manager is like that de". We only drink mocktail. Then i tell her we faster drink then go back lah, feel so uncomfortable with someone eyes looking at us lo.

Before going home, we went to the toilet. Wahhhhhhhh... The toilet so nice lo, really 6 * hotel. Outside the toilet, there are many display of alcohol. I will show it in the picture.

Here end my fun thursday. Poor hubby at home waiting for me. Haha... ... Reach home at abt 12am

Was quite tired due to the morning class

♥Want Friday, December 14, 2007

♥ Monday, December 10, 2007

Went westmall with hubby on sunday. It was a bad day cos it's raining.

Wanted to go osmose to try on a skirt which i saw it long time ago at causeway point but no one there to give comment so i went off without buying. After so many weeks then we got the free time to go westmall to try on and hubby are able to give comment on it.

The skirt was not very nice after i tried. Too long liao... seems to resemble my shorty, so decided not to buy.

Before that we actually got caught by a bridal exhibition booth, spend quite a long time at there hearing the boss promoting their shop promotion. $3388 for all in one able to store for 10 years. Siao de, never have the intention to get marry yet. Unless i gratuated and have lots of money. So many things still haven fulfill now wanna plan for wedding liao. I cannot ah......... many good things ahead for me to do, don't want to tie myself down. I'm still young, 21 years old only ok. Looking for my white horse too la.

At first thought it will just say a few things then can go, in the end the boss is damn aggressive lo. After she know hubby insiste to take sign up, she start to use words to attack hubby. Hmmmm... Siao Ding Dong.
Wanna earn our money not so easy!!!! Wahaha...

Bought some groceries like bath scrub, hanger and hook back home. No shopping... Actually i got lots of things to buy and all is related to make up. Will get it when i really feel i have urge for it.
Have write down alist and put in hubby car. haha...

Go home, iron clothes and play my lappy... that end my day... boring life.

♥Want Monday, December 10, 2007

♥ Sunday, December 9, 2007

****WinK WinK**** my new hair do...

Better hair style right, compare to the long long de

St James With Hubby!!!!!! *Smile*

A good bartender initiate to take for us

8th Dec 2007

Have my hair cut at "SHIRLEY MAH", My hair stylish was not there then let one lady cut my hair. Not bad, i think JIMMY can do better. I "Stereotype" lah... haha

I always think guy cut better than lady. Hubby also did his hair cut.

The lady keep persuading me to do a scalp treatment with her cos my hair condotion is not very good. Too oily which incurred to dropping of hair. I agreed. In the end never take from her lah, next time really wanna do then call again loh. After cutting then we go back home rot.

NIGHT TIME!!!!!!!

An unplanned club to st james power house on saturday. Just the 2 of Us...

Went there to explore the different rooms there because i am always at the Trance music and dragon fly side. Heard many told me that there are actually different area i can go, depend on the types of music i like. Going round and round, finally i and hubby decided to settle at a R&B + Retro + LiveBand room. "Forget the name liao".

Many adults and different colour faces haha... means multinational... Got big "nah nah" too, but ugly... oh my god.

One funny things is a black man drink our beer, he finish up our one and only drink. I and hubby do not want to spend too much on drinks cos i can drink whenever i work somemore we only go there and relax + explore. Then that Siao blackie finish it. He say he order another glass but hubby say don't want. Courtesy say don't want la, but actually we wanted him to buy a glass back.

Went home at 2+am, have a shower and proceed to bed.

♥Want Sunday, December 09, 2007

♥ Thursday, December 6, 2007

Why 4 in Love Cos We are Together as 4......

Meimei & Me

Ah Ting & Me

Jamie & Me

Delicious dinner at china square "Tung Lok Tea House" 5th December 2007 with jamie, ah ting and meimei.

We have a wonderful dinner, we talk non stop, laughing here and there, eat non-stop. The dinner did not cost us much, all credit to JAMIE. Her boss was the one who build china square, damn rich. One person paid about $29.20. Got Shark fin, Shanghai duck, drunken prawn, chilli crab and etc... ... Large variety to choose, next time can go there again. Woooo.....

Looking back, It had been so long that we last met up and have dinner together. Total 3 camera and we took quite a number of pciture. The picture not very nice lo, i look so old and ugly... hmmmmm, finding ways to make myself pretty and young. "God please help me"

After dinner we went to Boat Quay "Liquid" for a drink cos ah ting wanna drink haha... ... She super love to drink lo... ... Cannot Tahan... sing a few songs but the system was not very good. Once in a blue moon go there ok la. At 11+pm, meimei bf come and find her, then we play game "007", "Dice" and "Cards". So fun... laughter again.

Spending good times with them, make me smile. We cheer for our Friendship and Our friendship will last. Calculate i think we are together for 8-9 years le. We won't hope to last but WILL LAST!!!!!!! Smile Girl....... Hurray!!! Wong Yu Ting, Chye Gek Wen, Yeung Mei Mei, Chin Xiu Min

Our session end at 12+ then meimei bf send us home... But ah ting still at there continue drinking, you see how much she love to drink.

♥Want Thursday, December 06, 2007

♥ Tuesday, December 4, 2007

The past weekend was like SUCKS...

Friday - Quarrel at work
Saturday - Quarrel with Hubby cos of Friday issue
Sunday - Disagreement with mum

A bad bad day... Bad Luck...
Not to mention about those bad things... ... I want to smile please... ...

Monday: Done with my module selection, choose the same module with ZEN,
sales managemnet and principle of digital media. Hopefully we can get in the same class again.
Pray hard

Start a new week with a new smile.... Let me forget about the bad weekend please... ...

♥Want Tuesday, December 04, 2007

♥ Sunday, December 2, 2007

The ugly sun shade we got from them

ZenDy And Yvonne

The whole group of US

Those who wear it...

ZendY Lai YinDi -----------------Yvonne Chin Xiumin

I actually miss out one interesting blog...

"AIDS WALK AT YOUTH PARK TO CK TANG"

A walk which are organized by my school on preventing of AIDS. Free goodies bag contain condom, sun shade, pin + a urbanman tank top.

Participate with ZEN, REI, SHIJIA, MICHELLE, SAMANTHA, HANNAH, ELISE

half classmates and another half is not. I was the 1st to reach youth park, my fellow classmates are always late. So i proceed on to collect my own tank top. We are asked to walk from youth park to ck tangs with our tank top, it was like a whole bunch of youth creating awareness to the public.

i will upload some of the picture i took with my fellow friends.

♥Want Sunday, December 02, 2007

♥ Saturday, December 1, 2007

30th November 2007

A bad working day, have a quarrel with the "SICKENING CHEERY WHO IS MY WORKING PLACE MANAGER". I think she don't fit to be one.

"A HONGKEY is ALWAYS A HONGKEY, ACT SMART"

She damn KPO to punch my card during work on friday. Cos she saw me resting after drinking alot at there. "Hey, It is a pub not cafe. I drink also cos of enetaining customer". I was damn angry and we have a bad quarrel after work. After work, she bring me to the back and tell me why she help me punch my card.

The reason: I cannot work, cos i seems like drunk. As a management she think that i cannot work, so she punch my card and ask me stop work then can go home liao.

What the hell is that!!!!! Shit Her... ... poke her AssHole... ... Using management to press on me and using her own judgement to say i am unable to work. "An unrespect act"
A single respect to me also don't have. I feel so unfair cos other waitress also got drunk before but there seems no incident like this before.

Helping the company to save money... haha... But now i am not in the money issue but the kind of action she did made me feel sick.
I won't mention the scene during that time, it is terrible and horrible with all the shouting.

Going to have a talk with boss and the bitch on 7th Dec 2007. Let's see the outcome!!

Hubby ask me don't work anymore. I can don't work there cos i am sure there are many pub outside. Although it is a nice place to work n nice boss but the sick people make puke.
Still considering!!!! Many pple ask me dun bcos of this issue and quit but i will depend on the outcome this friday

♥Want Saturday, December 01, 2007